Sunflower (Paradise)
The sun painted the sky a soft peach color
How it set on your skin made me forget for a sec that time exists
Or rather, remember how much time you spend in it
you make my heart beat in rhythms i didn’t know were possible
you don’t understand your power
Grace and beauty like a wild sunflower
You see, truly, I could explore that field for hours
As I snap back to the moment, our eyes lock and we light up
Your smile, you can’t contain it, like being told your first secret as a child
never underestimate the universe because it let you just waltz into my life
And allowed you to win me over in 3 nights and 4 days
that’s me exaggerating but you broke me down quickly
Now in this world nothing will ever be the same
Did we just stumble into paradise?
See the blessings, count them twice
Let me hold you close, while we stare at the horizon
Step away from the shore, there could be a riptide
Ask me anything, i am an open book for you to explore
Analyze every chapter, until the one where life introduced you
Because how the rest goes is a mystery or rather
We can choose our own adventure and not fold under the pressure
i’ll finish this novel despite all of its imperfections
all of the plot holes and contradictions
could never measure to our connection
but hold on,
we don’t have to rush though
take everything super slow,
cuz we like watching the flowers grow
the storms may come but the raindrops fall off the petals
we can listen to them while they hit the ground
see how they nourish our garden and new roses color the background
there’s never a dull moment when you’re around
you add the rainbow to these skies that have been so monotone
i would know, yeah, i would know
because i’ve been staring at this blank canvas for too long
hoping to be inspired by the passing clouds
watching how the grey gradates to light blue and pastel yellow and pink
then i sit back and think
reminiscing on how you drank that cherry wine
but i preferred your orange liqueur
damn, i am addicted and would probably drown in it given the opportunity
right now it’s just you and me taking on whatever obstacles the world throws at us
step by step we march forth even if we get lost like the hebrews in the desert
we don’t have to know where we are going,
only sure that we are walking the same way
with you by my side ain’t a thing that’s gon make me break
so why don’t you stay a little while?
we can truly explore this paradise together
see how far past the horizon it really goes
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I am not very good at this game
I don't know what the pieces do
Don't understand how to make a move
It's driving me a little bit insane
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Yet you perfectly understand the cadence
You did set the board after all
And invited me over to participate
Eagerly awaiting my response
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I don't really like this game now that I know the patterns
And realize I was set up to lose from the start
Yet, I still played along with hopes that it would be different this time
My naivety got the better of me
You stood up and walked away when you got bored
That was a flash decision, gave me some whiplash
I thought that we should finish this
I want to know who the winner is
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We should have written a play instead
At least then I'd know what my role is
And I'd be able to do what I do best
Act like I don't give a shit
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Pretend like nothing phases me
Even though it's just me being stoic
Knowing I'm dying inside
Feels like I've been buried alive
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This is my brain being poetic
Because your touch is where my medicine is
It's the penicillin that I ain't have in a minute
Which turned to hours, days, weeks, months
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Speaking of turns, isn't it your move to make now?
Sorry, I got distracted and hella spaced out
Is it just the Wires in the Way now?
The reason that I'm Still Blue?
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I don't really know but
I've just been dealing with a whole lot of bullshit on my end
It just seems to be all for life's amusement
I need your help sorting through the confusion
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Just some patience, understanding while I'm on the edge of losing
Need a second of peace, but the world won't stop moving
Like the hands on this clock that I can't rewind
Maybe all we need right now is time